for some reason my friends like to shoot me down when i'm feeling pretty. like last night. i got a makeover at a mary-kay party i went to, and i took pictures and posted them, and well, someone decided that i shouldnt have the right to feel at least semi-pretty. that i need to constantly be reminded that in actuality i am not, that i am gaunt and sickly-looking and that i've ruined myself. oh yes i know that my dear. but it's nice to be able to escape that and forget about it, even for just a little while.



edit:

i appreciate the honesty. i do need to be made aware of what's happening to me, especaly since i dont really see it or understand it (i'm still technically at a healthy weight, and to me i just feel like i look normal). it was just not a good time to bring it up. but i'm over it now. it's fine.