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09 August 2006 @ 09:02 am
this entry, now coming to you publicly, cuz it's just more fun that way.  
for some reason my friends like to shoot me down when i'm feeling pretty. like last night. i got a makeover at a mary-kay party i went to, and i took pictures and posted them, and well, someone decided that i shouldnt have the right to feel at least semi-pretty. that i need to constantly be reminded that in actuality i am not, that i am gaunt and sickly-looking and that i've ruined myself. oh yes i know that my dear. but it's nice to be able to escape that and forget about it, even for just a little while.



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i appreciate the honesty. i do need to be made aware of what's happening to me, especaly since i dont really see it or understand it (i'm still technically at a healthy weight, and to me i just feel like i look normal). it was just not a good time to bring it up. but i'm over it now. it's fine.
 
 
 
Maddepenguinrevenge on August 9th, 2006 02:49 pm (UTC)
because you DO look old and ugly now. fuck malnourishment, and fuck what you think about other people. you look terrible. and you probably take this as motivation to make yourself worse. everyone talks about you melanie. everyone thinks you're ugly. everyone thinks you're fucking ridiculous. no one's said anything because we don't want you to kill yourself. or, god help you, write more livejournal entries about it.
you know i have this journal on my friends page. why did you write about me? seeing as how you even deleted what i said to you on your other journal, i dont think people on this one deserve to know. you don't even know them. they don't even know you. it's sad. not that you don't know them, but because they're pretending to be the same as you.
don't reply to this, i don't wanna hear about what you have to say.
and do everyone a favor and just jump off a fucking cliff.
fakeplasticrose on August 9th, 2006 03:47 pm (UTC)
wow, you are such a bitch.
u_n_written on August 9th, 2006 04:01 pm (UTC)
are you fucking kidding? Get the fuck out of here what kind of fucking friend are you? Why don't you go jump off a cliff because you obviously are a waste of fucking life.
Maddepenguinrevenge on August 9th, 2006 09:34 pm (UTC)
i'm not her friend
Melaniehope_land on August 10th, 2006 03:12 am (UTC)
how dramatic. over a livejournal comment.
Melaniehope_land on August 9th, 2006 06:34 pm (UTC)
all i'm gonna say is if you dont like being friends with this livejournal, simply take me off your list. and notice that i never mentioned your name or what you said.
system_meltdown on August 10th, 2006 03:15 am (UTC)
I just think it's funny, the girl who used to subtly compete with Melanie during school with things like, "I only ate this today." or "I only drink coke zero because all those calories make me soooo fat." and all that shit during the winter and now you're just bashing her. You're too competative for your own good. I used to think you were a kind, compassionate and understanding person, Madde. But I guess you can't see past yourself and/or your initial reactions to things and for that, I am sorry, for you and for whoever else thinks your way. You're alot different than the girl I met a while ago, playing some songs on her acoustic guitar with her pretty voice and angsty cries. It seems like you've changed alot, and it makes me sad. You're not the girl I used to know and I wish you were.
Melaniehope_land on August 10th, 2006 04:58 pm (UTC)
oh yes and not to mention all the times she's IMed me asking for weight-loss tips. it's all very hypocritical, hmm.

but since this is entirely silly, and i really dont even understand WHY you got so angry in the first place (perhaps you've just been looking for a reason to go of on me for some time now?), so because of the silliness of all this i've said my last in this arguement. i just find it quite amusing considering i'm notnearly as mad at you as you are at me, which further shows how dramatic you are being since what you've been saying to me and behind my back in custom filtered lj entries (how mature) is far worse than anything i've written in this entry. YOU were the one who made yourself known as the person i was writing about, not me.